I am completely obsessed with mental health and suicide?

You do have obsessive thoughts, that's quite clear. I'm sort of the way you are with the getting to know people who have major problems. I seem to always be drawn to people who have mental disorders, want to commit suicide, have had an abusive past, etc. I don't feel a rush out of but I feel good about myself when I can try helping someone. I'm really interested in what you're obsessed with. You should maybe be a psychologist. I think you should see a psychiatrist and explain everything to him/her. Maybe you have a mental disorder that's triggering you to behave like this. I really don't know what's wrong with you but that's all I can say. I hope I helped.